It has been long, I know.  No excuses there.

Today is going to be a big day for me. At this time,  I am learning how to drive.  And to tell you the truth, I am scared.

But the thing is, I do not know why.  There is absolutely no reason for me to be this scared but I am.  And I have never felt this way about something, especially something that I want to do.  Its going to be the first lesson.  It’s not that I know I will do bad.  It’s not that I am afraid of hurting myself.  I have actually never thought of those things before, but this feeling is lingering in me.  I know I will do well and I know that I have low self confidence, but it is still there.

I always knew that I would have to reach this point in my life.  That I would start.  I thought it would be at the start of the year, but things did not go as planned.  Then after asking about it several times, I was told the beginning of next year.  I was excited because it was more solid plans.  Then come to learn that my grandfather wanted me to start during my vacation, everything then seemed real.  And it is starting.  I think that is the reason.  I think this feeling is because I thought I had more time to prepare myself mentally, however, I really do not.  And writing this post the night before, it is becoming real minute by minute.

I am happy.  Don’t think that I am not. I truly am.  Trust me I have dreams of owing my vehicle already.  But I think that I just need the first lesson to go by to feel better.

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xoxo 4


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