It has been long, I know. No excuses there.
Today is going to be a big day for me. At this time, I am learning how to drive. And to tell you the truth, I am scared.
But the thing is, I do not know why. There is absolutely no reason for me to be this scared but I am. And I have never felt this way about something, especially something that I want to do. Its going to be the first lesson. It’s not that I know I will do bad. It’s not that I am afraid of hurting myself. I have actually never thought of those things before, but this feeling is lingering in me. I know I will do well and I know that I have low self confidence, but it is still there.
I always knew that I would have to reach this point in my life. That I would start. I thought it would be at the start of the year, but things did not go as planned. Then after asking about it several times, I was told the beginning of next year. I was excited because it was more solid plans. Then come to learn that my grandfather wanted me to start during my vacation, everything then seemed real. And it is starting. I think that is the reason. I think this feeling is because I thought I had more time to prepare myself mentally, however, I really do not. And writing this post the night before, it is becoming real minute by minute.
I am happy. Don’t think that I am not. I truly am. Trust me I have dreams of owing my vehicle already. But I think that I just need the first lesson to go by to feel better.
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