I am always that person who is willing to help you. The person who is empathetic. The person who will borrow you something, or do something for you and not expect something in return.
But how is it that I am the one who is always hurt in the process huh? I borrow you something and it is not returned. Or it is damaged. Or even finished when it was brand new. I do something for you and you do not remember me when it is time for you to return the favour.
How is it I am the one who always get hurt in the end? How is it I am the one who does not get invited because I am forgotten? How is it you get to save your money and I am the one spending mine?
How does that make anything fair?
How am I the one to ALWAYS get hurt in the process?
How is it that I am the one to be crying at the end of the day?
Why does it always HAVE to be me?
Is there a bad side to being too much of a nice person?
Why does it hurt to help someone?
Why am I SO unlucky?
Why do I not get some type of reward.
I am tired
I am tired of putting myself out there and being there for other people.
I think it is time to stop.
* This is not a poem. It is just me trying to tell my side of things the only way that I know how. However it can happen and whatever that comes to my mind. This is how I feel at the moment. In fact most of the time.
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