Have you ever unlocked your phone hoping that you see a text message from someone? To be specific, the guy or girl that you like? It sucks, doesn’t it?
I know. Thats my situation currently.
Every day, every time I pass near my phone, I touch the home button, hoping that there is a message from him. But that hope falls on death ears, because it doesn’t exist. At all.
The thing is, it is not his fault. I was the one who developed the crush on him. I was drawn into his words, his smile, his personality. It was not something I expected would have happened, because I had never been in a situation like that before. Believe it or not, I had never liked someone, ever, in all of my 19 years. So it was completely new to me.
So casually you walked into my universe
You said “Hey you got some pretty brown eyes”
And I couldn’t, couldn’t help but smile
And I think that’s the moment it all happen
“Wouldn’t you say so, Captain?”
Not gonna to lie, it is a painful experience. Heartbreaking actually. The first of many to come, if it comes at all. Every time I try to get over him, I remember. All the words that were said, all the time that was spent, the jokes that were made. If its not that, when I least expect it, he pops back into my messages. Then the whole cycle continues. Again.
You may ask why I haven’t deleted his number? Or block him? Wouldn’t that solve my problems?
It wouldn’t because the memories exist for one, especially in my journal. And most importantly, he did nothing wrong. He’s always been the friend who is there when I have needed someone the most.
The only problem is that I was the one who fell for him.
I don’t need you to feel sorry for me. I just wanted to open up about what is going on, because its hard for me.
Everything happens for a reason. Maybe this was just not meant to be.
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